At least once in your life, you will experience ABSOLUTE FEAR. A fear that freezes your entire body and in that fear you start to lose sense of the world. Nothing else matters in that moment. In that moment, all of the petty things that consist of your average daily life have no meaning because if you think about it, at the core they really don’t. Now you are faced with something that questions both your sanity and your soul.
I believe that if we are honest with ourselves, in that moment of absolute fear, we feel nothing because we don’t know what to feel. Anger, joy, confusion, our body is striving to make sense of the situation and choose what the next move will be. Some run right into the face of their fears, others run as far away as they can. It depends on who you are. And feeling afraid is okay.
I am afraid of something I cannot control. Rather than a single moment, my life IS that fear and I still don’t know what to feel. One side of me is afraid, helpless, weak, frightened, but the other is strong, angry, and not about to take any shit without a fight. The feelings clash, they mix, they control me- but for now, that’s okay.
Someday this will come to an end, and as long as I grip strongly to my foundation, nothing can knock me into the dark, endless abyss below me. Yes, of course I am afraid of falling, but in that fear you must be strong. You MUST believe in yourself, and if you don’t- find someone who does believe in you. I’m afraid, but I refuse to let this fear become a part of me and change who I know I am.
So whenever you feel that utter fear, whenever you feel frozen and helpless, whenever you are struggling to keep your grasp on your own foundation- just remember. You are strong and you will get through it. Nothing can control you but yourself; refuse to let some outside force determine your life and the way you look at the world.
I am powerful, I love the person that I am, and I know there is light at the end of every tunnel.
And that’s why I always liked Hermione.